| Monday, March 23rd, 2009 |
| 4:13 pm |
Rocked the timed pratice l-sat again, actually scored two points higher than the last time bringing me up to 172 out of 180. If I can score that high again at the end of the summer on the actual test I can pick whatever law school I want to go to with a full ride. Harvard? Wouldn't that be nuts. Current Mood:  indifferent |
| Friday, May 19th, 2006 |
| 10:46 am |
8 days a week.
I was looking for inspiration in the mountains. All I found was some creep named Bernie. Fuck. Current Mood: Post traumatic Bernie disorder |
| Saturday, April 15th, 2006 |
| 1:42 pm |
TOMS PARTY WAS AWESOME!!!!! |
| Thursday, April 6th, 2006 |
| 3:51 pm |
Undistressed.
Things go well in a slow ascent upward. I do well in my classes, and make soon will be making money hand over fist and be able to pay people back (two in particular). I dont feel anxious like I used these days...I think Ive accepted the fact that this group is changing for better or worse (depending who you ask)but like it or not I imagine by this time next year everything may be different. I guess Im glad for it. I think its been this way to long and stagnation has become evedent everywhere and with everyone including myself. So I suppose I'll start looking to the future about foreign exchange programs wherever I end up going to school. See the world maybe at least one other part of it. And then...who knows I know that I cant stay here in aurora thats for ceartin. Nothing for any of us in this town in the long run. Its a nice place to grow up in but not to live, and Im sad that I feel this way because I have so many fond memories of it but you cant base your life on your past its not a good way to plan any kind of future. Current Mood:  sleepy |
| Thursday, March 30th, 2006 |
| 10:55 pm |
Rum to whiskey.
I find it unpalatable sometimes when people assume things. I find it deeply offensive when people make broad and sweeping generalizations about an ENTIRE race simply because of unauspicious beginnings. And, my my golden day when I have someone do both of those things in one conversation. Not that I dont think its possible for someone outside of a specific color, creed, or class to have a insightful perspective on some meaningful aspect of my heritage. But honestly dating a mexican or taking a latino studies class is a far far cry from being hispanic. So then to presume that an entire race feels some sort of gestalt loathing for itself because of crimes purpetrated on a culture by other parts of the roots that comprise its heritage. Ridiculous. Its like saying the italians feel self loathing for having Moor in their bloodlines. Simply because rape occured in a time period doesnt mean that simple cultural diffusion didnt occur. Its seems vicious and condescending to imply that to be the ground on which any civilization was founded. The eye opening truth to how some people think make me sick to my stomach. Its a dangeours thing to be too liberal sometimes worse in some ways than being a conservitive. At least I know where I stand with most conservitives. Not having to worry that Im secretly veiwed in some underhanded light. |
| Saturday, January 14th, 2006 |
| 5:03 pm |
HOLY FUCK!!
Vinnie Jones is going to be playing the Juggernaut in the 3 X-Men Flick!! Im am SO fuckin happy with that choice! |
| Sunday, November 13th, 2005 |
| 4:29 pm |
How we met Part one: Thick as thieves - Sam
It was 1:57 and I was late. I remember it specifically because I was sober that day, and was feeling the weight of school bearing down on my head like a ton of shit, and I was late. Late didnt bother me usually but I would actually hear the speech today, so in an of true WWJD I took the elevator ment for handicapped students. Then as it was about to close a skinny hooligan wearing geeky suspendersand goldfinger shirt hopped in at the last moment. I arched my eyebrow slightly " Your not crippled " he laughed and said " neither are you " as the door closed our laughing could be heard from anywhere on the second floor. It was the beginning of one of my longest and closest freindships. And then I ate the whole pizza. This is the first of a series of how I met my circle of freinds |
| Friday, November 11th, 2005 |
| 2:11 pm |
You must be this smart to be rich and powerful.
I cant do it anymore. I cant stand celebrities anymore. A mandatory I.Q. test must be issued to all individuals who have found themselves in a position of fame or substantial wealth. Those who cannot touch the barest glimmer of intelect or reason: will be shot and their naked corpses will be paraded throught the streets, red kabbalah strings will be used to secure the unfortunate dullard to a paper mache cross comprised of pages from dianetics, as people from all over the country, and world can throw designer energy drinks at the battered remains of thier ignorant gulibility. And when the bloody parade has seen its way to the ends of the earth a burning pyre will be made and all other celebrities should be lined up and made to watch as a warning: Shut up and entertain me. Remain entertaining and reasonably intelligent...or else. Current Mood:  crazy |
| Tuesday, November 1st, 2005 |
| 12:54 pm |
Covered in shit.
I dont have the paitence to be me anymore. I cant stnad it. Its driving me to the point of suicidal thoughts and earth shattering paranoia. I cant stand it and I dont care if everything falls apart on me its not worth keeping up anymore. Everything I try blows up in my face everything I want or love is completely unattainable at present and more often than not my ability to cope with minor setbacks is fading into obscurity right along with my ability to keep rage bottled up. I am a ticking timebomb, and I cant wait for some stupid fuck to misstep with me because he wont live long enough to never forget the mistake, but even that wont help it'll just push me further down. Current Mood:  distressed |
| Thursday, October 20th, 2005 |
| 1:40 pm |
GO TEAM BONE!!!!!!
I dont like work...and I dont think Im gonna do it anymore. I've found a possible way out, and by jimmy Im gonna run with it. GO TEAM BONE!!!!!!!!!! Current Mood: giddyCurrent Music: One step beyond- Madness |
| Monday, October 10th, 2005 |
| 2:49 am |
*shudder*
Fuckin cd....fucking freezer not being able to contain its evil...fuckin Tim. Current Mood:  uncomfortable |
| Wednesday, September 14th, 2005 |
| 7:34 pm |
www.robhatesassholes.com/fuckingkill
I was reading the beacon to pass the time while sitting on the john the other day, and an article about he presidents visit to our fair state was featured. It had a lot of the same shit you'd expect to see in ANY article about George W. Bush: protesters,a traveling community of outraged, and mourning parents, and a set of diehard supporters who call them other two factions traitors. WOW I could hardly even believe that any bush mind thrall had the nerve to try and suppress people who were exercising their RIGHT to say, and think what they wanted to. It made me sick. So while alot of people have come forward and given reasons and facts about our president and why we should hate his guts I have a more emotional response. He offends my sensiblities as a former christian with his intolerance and outright evil. He offends my beliefs as a Taoist with his warmongering and greed. He offends my humanity with his eagerness to send/and kill brave people for nothing. He is a sinister malign parasite who cares little to nothing for any of us. If he got hit by a bus tomorrow we should throw a celebration that would dwarf Caligula in madness and revelry. Current Mood: crazy |
| Wednesday, September 7th, 2005 |
| 3:37 pm |
Pardon my french...
What a fucker. Im not angry, but seriously: what a fucker! Im not gonna be bitter but it ceartinly is an example of how shitty this persons moral compass is and how willing to stab his freinds in the back for an easy lay. Yeah sure I wasnt interested anymore BUT he didnt know that shit. I had just made that desicion the week before. He wouldve done it anyway,and thats the part that bugs me is that he doesnt care that we're freinds and he wouldnt have given it a second thought if it had hurt my feelings or made me feel betrayed. Hes just an empty shell a void of emotion who thinks because hes okay with everything that everyone else should be. Well Im sorry. Its not okay, and Im not angry with you because your not worth it ...you wouldnt care even if I was pissed so whats the point. What a fucker. Seriously. Current Mood: tired |
| Thursday, August 18th, 2005 |
| 3:02 pm |
Its a tough cookie.
It sucks when someone won't listen to you. Especially if they think your up to no good. But if you cant be belived all you can say is "Ask them" and you know whats really going on. Current Mood: crappy |
| Tuesday, July 5th, 2005 |
| 8:22 pm |
I'll see the morning break somewhere unknown.
It was last night when a dear freind of mine and I began talking. We were interested and to the point with each other and spoke in the blunt honesty that Ive come to expect. Life was the subject of our discussion. We talked for hours and made sense of so many things that the other one just couldnt realate to well anyone really since our freindship was not like alot of our freindships. So, when we were done we both had something that I dont think we had before: a real sense of direction. I've made a few resoulutions that Im going to stick with to acheive my intended destiny in life. 1. Finish College-everything I want in life I have to get through further schooling. 2. Get a job at National Geographic- Its been my dream since I was 8. 3. Have adventures until I am too old to do so anymore. I will do these things. If I have to die trying. If I have to crawl through Hell and cut out the Devils heart. I will not fail to make my life something to be remembered. Current Mood: lonely |
| Wednesday, June 29th, 2005 |
| 6:08 pm |
Focused.
My sister came over this morning at 700 am she caught me sketching in my boxers, it wasnt even the slightest bit awkward. Current Mood:  amused |
| 1:09 am |
Can you dig?
I am always at odds with the world. It seems to be that for most of my life fate and I have crossed metaphorical swords. Tonight was the next in as long set of nights where I just felt okay and it didnt matter that things were rough, because they would all work out. If just being near someone and sharing something as simple as honest conversations can make all the difference in a long shitty day. A person whos really special to you is a hard thing to find. I wanted to drive with her all night. I still do. Current Mood: giddy |
| Tuesday, June 28th, 2005 |
| 7:55 am |
Crawling towards something better.
I dont remember the last time I felt this way about my life. I feel whole and complete, and its like nothing that can be done to me or thrown at me is slowing me down. This focus is cutting through me like a knife its acuteness a galvanizing factor for me to stop dreaming of the things I want to do, and forcing me to just do them. If I have been angry thats gone, if I have been jelous, or covetous, those feelings are slowing being washed away by this sense of contentment. I am sure of myself for the first time ever. p.s. Last night was awesome all the wya up to the part where I nearly got got killed. Current Mood:  accomplished |
| Sunday, June 26th, 2005 |
| 5:58 pm |
These things that I think but do not say...or do I!!!
I came clean with someone today about how I felt about her. It was awesome it didnt blow up in my face and we're hanging out on in a few days, when we both have off. Life are good sometimes. Current Mood: Happy....?Current Music: Nick bitching about Zelda |
| Tuesday, June 14th, 2005 |
| 8:18 pm |
Jim Hensons dead.
Im going to buy a hand puppet soon, and with this hand puppet communications (big and small) will occur. I will use the puppet in day to day transactions forcing people to partake in my perverse little puppet show. When I go to work he'll come to in a little BP uniform he'll have little bags under his eyes because he's tired of the man keeping him down. We'll go out to clubs where he'll try and pick up women ,the puppet will, and they'll reject him for being made of cloth. So he'll cut their faces and tell them how no one BUT a puppet will want them now. Years will go by and My puppet and I will grow apart. He will resent me for my legs, and grow angry at my constant use of fingers to acheive intended goals.Things will only get worse over time. The puppet will find religion in Islam to help deal with the day to days of being a puppet in america(a very small minority indeed) but, will soon delve into darker interpretations of the faith. Prison will be hard for me and my puppet. My "I was sleeping defense" wont hold up in court and I too will be indited in the "Jim Henson" bombings. My puppet and I will grow closer as we fight to stay alive in the joint...we will eventually become lovers, and get an early parole for good behavoir. In a fit of rage my puppet will kill after it learns of my infidelity with a sock...and they give him the chair....a little puppet sized chair attached to another deathrow inmates hand. And truly this sad story of loving hand puppets will go down as a true american tragedy. The End. Current Music: Buh? |
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